Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Sunday sunshine

Last Sunday, it was the 5th day of no Q-dawg.

Not normally a time when anyone would want to be around me :).

However, I had several miracles that really helped out!

First, the kids all worked together to get out the door.  Now, we always have at least one thing missing.  We take turns.  One week it is scriptures; another, it is something for our "lunch" after church (since we always seem to have one thing or another keeping us longer than our 1 o'clock ending time and the kiddos get hungry!).  More frequently it is shoes and pants, particularly one of the many sets of black pants in our house. I know, if it is frequent, we should take time earlier in the week to find and organize them. 

Noted.  We will see.  However, in the reality of the present, it is a common problem :).

This week, it was the Goob's pants.  He expeditiously borrowed Q-dawg's and just cinched his belt up.  Done.  We were only about 10 minutes later, so good to go, right?

Well, we showed up and there we were, at the church 30 minutes away without a tie for the Goob to perform his priesthood ordinances in.  Scavenger hunt time.

Bishop, no.
Uncle, no.
Random man walking by, no.
None of them had an extra tie.

I saw a young man running by with a fabulous bowtie.  Bingo!  The charming youngster gallantly lent us the bowtie!

As I went back to the Goob, victorious, there he was talking to the missionaries. "Heard you needed a tie....we have plenty in our car."  Silly me!  Ask the missionaries, right?

So, tie crisis=averted.

Next crisis: facing Sacrament Meeting with no one older that Liliputian there to help and five little kids eight and younger who had just sat through three meetings the day before.  Spooner took one look at the chapel and ran in terror.  Not a good start.

We made it through the Sacrament with me discretely nursing Zsa-man in my bench.  Believe me, the alternate option of going out would have been much more disruptive!  The Goob descends from his passing of the sacrament as an angel of mercy and takes the tired Zsa-man and holds him for the duration of the meeting, putting him to sleep.  Glory be!

While we were sitting there, Papaya makes a bid to go and sit by the glorious Sister Pace, friend extraordinaire! (This woman brings yummy deliciousness to entice the good-will of my children, giving Spooner white chocolate chips all the while saying, "Sister Pace is your friend."  Love it.)
One more child nurtured...yay! 

Spooner sat quietly on my lap.  Chugger-dude kept trying to sprawl all over the bench next to me and then nestled up to me for snuggles when Spooner made his way under the benches, playing with the delightful couple in front of us, the Horners, who welcomed his antics with smiles, making him giggle as they reached down and tickled his feet.

Liliputian and Pipalicious traced each other's backs, giggled and squirmed at the opposite end of the bench.  Normally, our family fills the middle pew bench to capacity, even to overflowing, but today there was really no reason for us to sit across an entire bench.  They were capitalizing on the distance to have a little more fun than was probably reverent.  Sigh. I just had to pick my battles at that moment and they were happy.  I contented myself with looks and gestures to try and remind them from a distance to be reverent :).

One of my favorite parts of sacrament meeting was little Hava, sitting by me, trying to put her feelings down onto paper.  She knows how to spell some words and sound out others, but her thoughts were a little too complex for her this time. "Mom, could you spell..." was a frequent question as I tried to absorb the speaker's remarks.  After about six to seven words, she came up with a great solution, having to wait for a pause in the remarks each time. "How about you just write down all the rest of the words and I will trace them?" (I like to have them trace over my letters if I "write for them" so that they are getting better at it...maximize the moment!)
When I feel the Holy Ghost it feels like there is a warm blanket wrapping around my body.  I love my body!!

Monday, September 28, 2015

From my perspective...

There are some overlapping of posts between my blogs, but I am in a hurry and am not going to take the time to adapt and adjust.  Enjoy!

This morning, as I prayed, it was interesting to try and articulate what it was I truly wanted for me and my children.  I think I came to this:
-for the them to know, love and serve God
-for them to be prepared in every way I can help them to fulfill their missions on this earth
-to know what is the right time to do things and when is the right time to not do things.

The scripture in Ecclesiastes came into my mind:
1To every thing there is a season , and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 
2A time to be born, and a time to die ; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 
3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 
4A time to weep, and a time to laugh ; a time to mourn , and a time to dance; 
5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 
6A time to get , and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 
7A time to rend , and a time to sew; a time to keep silence , and a time to speak; 
8A time to love, and a time to hate ; a time of war, and a time of peace. 

I think there is always a time for peace...but is there? When there is a war to be fought, whether in our homes or around us?  Hmmm...something to ponder.  Can we not carry peace in our hearts?  Did the Savior's heart have peace, as we would describe it, as he cast the people out of the temple?

I am excited to start school again! I just did a post on my homeschooling for the bees blog and posted some of this on Lazarus--trying to follow promptings! 

Q-dawg and Avot arrive home today and I am so excited to see them again. I have felt a lot of peace while they were gone and the other kids have been fantastic!!! Yesterday we had more of an unstructured afternoon, which was fabulous and much needed after our crazy day on Saturday: two baptisms and the woman's broadcast, which made a long day in Lockport and at the church.  We had a game plan going in: from backpacks loaded with coloring supplies and snacks to jammies and the laptop with a movie for Chugger-dude and the kids to enjoy.  The Goob was enjoying the day with the Paces watching a BYU game. I was so happy for him!   I love that guy.  He is so good. I just wish he could see it!  He walks with a hunch, which is silly.  Stand up, dude!  Be confident and proud!

I see Liliputian struggling with her self-esteem too.  Argh!  They are such amazing kids!  I need to find something that they excel in that can bring them confidence.  Maybe I will look into those horseback riding lessons for Liliputian? 

I am just barely starting to take a magnesium supplement to help hopefully calm a little of my anxiety I have been feeling. I don't like to just worry for the sake of worrying...worrying that there is something wrong with what I am currently doing or something that I should be doing that I am not...well, perhaps those are one and the same :).  The other day I posted on my Lazarus blog something that has really helped: looking toward the Savior, which truly is amazing.

Avot is almost gone and it breaks my heart.  Today I am going to set up a structure to the day...and then relax and enjoy!!!  Look around, love, nurture, support.  

I was struck in my scripture reading yesterday that Lehi left "all his precious possessions." I am so grateful that this doesn't have to be my books right now!!  But, thinking about it, he left them, and he was okay.  His family thrived and settled a new continent.  Mary, be wary of what you feel is necessary for your kids to learn (and the world) and what God feels is necessary.

And then take a deep breath.  And be content.

I am grateful for the tithing blessing of a full fridge. I have not done my shopping for this week and it is already brimming with food.  True, it does not take long for it to empty with our family :), but I am so grateful!  A dear sister, Justine, brought by a full dinner complete with delicious home-made rolls, brownies, chicken salad, fresh garden tomatoes, and homemade caramel sauce.  We all enjoyed her sweet company especially.  She brings such a spirit of peace and joy.  We have been blessed with these people we meet!

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Quickie

Apparently, Spooner got on after me and "posted" the following before I was ready for it to be done:

The Goob BYU game
Liliputian cooking
Avot and Lek Salt Lake with Q-dawg
Chugger-dude Lord of the Rings and running
Pipalicious "I'd love to!"
Hava fell and wounded herself
Papaya "I listened and obeyed!"
Spooner: messes and apologies...hate poop
Zsa-man: bubbles, smiles, fatness and sleep

 Those were just my notes!

The Goob was able to go to the BYU-Michigan state game with some friends last minute last weekend: so cool for him!!!

BYU lost miserably, but the trip there and back (in one day--12 hours of driving) was fun for him and the overall experience fantastic!!

Liliputian has been working on her personal progress with me and has been helping plan and cook meals for the last week.  She is doing so well!  She made some delicious zucchini bread pretty much all by herself!  She is also such a peace maker.  Last night I was exhausted and Papaya was still up.  I turned around at one point from nursing Zsa-man to see Liliputian sitting next to her bed, telling her stories and singing her songs.  How do you thank someone enough for that? I am not sure...

Avot and Q-dawg have been at a conference in Salt Lake since last Tuesday and they come home today!!!  Lek was there visiting friends in our old stomping grounds and having a fabulous time. I am happy for him :). He is coming home on Wednesday, having bartered for a little more time.

I have been reading Lord of the Rings aloud to Chugger-dude at night...until I fall asleep. :) He is so undemanding I have to be careful and make sure he knows that I love him and do things with him.  He also has started running with us, but we have to be careful with that, as well. His chest can really start hurting if he pushes himself to much, so we are trying to start small.  He likes to push himself, though, to try and keep up with the Goob :).  Chugger-dude still has that heart of gold.  Love that guy.

Pipalicious can be characterized by that one phrase, "I'd love to!" said in that cute little Pipalicious voice.  Darling.  She says that at night when Q-dawg asks here to do her turn with the reading of the scriptures and we love it.  She gets up eagerly to do her basics each morning and is a ray of sunshine...with a streak of spunk.  Love it!

Hava is drama :).  She fell at the park the other day and wounded herself a couple times.  So what did she want her dad to know about her time away from him?  Her wounds, of course. "Make sure you tell him!"  She also wrote down a sweet testimony yesterday and shared it in Primary.  It is fun to watch her blossom and grow.

Papaya has been working on obedience lately (we both have!) and it is so cute for her to pause, slowly turn around with shock and disbelief in those wide round eyes, "Mom!!! I listened and obeyed!!"  So cute.  And she is, which is such a relief!

Spooner is darling. He is the only two-year old I have met that makes messes and then hugs and kisses you when he realizes he is in trouble...and then cleans it up with you :).  He still doesn't articulate much, but his range of expression continues to grow and we celebrate every sound that makes any kind of sense that he makes :).

Zsa-man is just a round little ball of fat cuteness. I am hoping with all this cleaning and straightening of our house we can have the camera charged and ready to go to capture him a little more.  His smiles are so sweet and his face so peaceful.  He doesn't sleep very well through the night, still waking up a couple of times, but he is patient and good.  I am grateful for his sweet presence...such a balm to our family.  Papaya and he have a great time together. She even put him to sleep for me the other day in the baby swing!  She was so proud of herself and is really such a good little mommy....even if she is a little too confident for my comfort sometimes :).

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Just had to write

Avot approached me tonight after work and said that if her application process to BYU-I (which has been a nightmare) doesn't go through in time to get some classes in before her mission, she wants to start a great books class with me.  Yippee!!!

She also had a break through after listening to "The Field" by Kirk Duncan.  He is a man who tries to help people "present themselves" better, face fears, become better.   She has been listening to them in preparation to go to a conference next week in Utah with Q-dawg and today she listened to a part that inspired her to open her mouth and talk at work. She put herself out there and actually tried to start and keep up a conversation!!  And she lived! :)  She is normally content to be quiet, but I have known for years that there is so much going on in that pretty little head that I wanted to hear and know and respond to.  Avot has opened up more around me (as I have tried to make myself a safer person to be around...less volatile, that kind of thing :S...) and it has been a blast.  Now the rest of the world can enjoy her!  Lucky them and yay for her!! 

Avot is also looking fowrard to spending the next week with her dad and then playing games at night with Buchanans.  Heaven for her!  She also can officially unpack her books and put them up on a bookshelf...a big moment for us!

Speaking of bookshelves, did I mention that I was inspired to find some brand new ones for only $27 each?!?!  Super awesome.  Since our flooring upstairs is in and the flooring downstairs may still take a while, I am unpacking my babies, my books, and putting them onto the eight new bookshelves we bought.  I was in heaven!  I was only going to get 6, but then that little voice (the one I always regret not listening to later) told me to get 8.  And boy am I glad!   They will barely fit on as it is!  My kids are quite the book collectors too, so allowing them to have a place to pull out their own libraries is making it more a home for them.  Yay!!

Lek has had a very intense but awesome day.  He has been looking at his motivations, his education....and tonight he was reading Freud and taking notes.  That young man is ready to explode.  Watch out world!! Lek is finding what is inside and letting it loose!

The Goob has started seminary for the first time and has already shown dedication in doing it!  We also looked into Civil Air Patrol for him.  That kid makes us all laugh so much, but he is also gaining maturity, giving us glimpses of the man within.  Love that young man.

Liliputian, Pipalicious, Hava and Papaya all joined us for our own "Girls on the Run" practice tonight :)!  It was so fun!  We were really bummed that I neglected to find out more and register the girls in time to participate (things have been a little crazy, eh?) but Jackie says that we can enroll in the spring, which will be wonderful!  In the meanwhile, we had a fun pep talk, stretches, and one mile run.  One lap, Papaya and I ended up skipping and walking backward, but what a fun way for her to be herself!  I don't think making brownies, licking out the bowl and eating some later would be an approved "Girls on the Run" after activity, but we liked it :)!

Chugger-dude is my go to "bookshelf assembler."  He was up until 10 pm tonight finishing one he had started before scouts and wanted to finish.  What a trooper!  The Goob had put one together earlier today, but I had been distracting him by doing family reading at the same time, so we ended up with a...different...kind of bookcase :).  I actually like it.  It reminds me of the Goob and his cool personality :),  Chugger-dude is such a sweetie.  I get so many hugs from him...actually, all the kids are so good at giving me physical affection: hugs and kisses, especially when I am stressed or upset.  Yesterday, I woke up grumpy from a flopped nap and Chugger-dude braved the dragon's teeth as it were and followed me around, offering to help.  Sweet guy.

The little girls give me notes, notes and more notes :).  It is fun to see their penmanship and ability to spell improve with their repetition in their notes.  And I love their artwork :).  I really tried to enoy the kids, enjoy the moment, and not get psycho stressed out about all the chaos, boxes and mess around.  Not so easy, but the sweet kids helped.

Chugger-dude also led us on a service project today!  Yesterday, he baked up a bunch of cake mix cookies (1 box cake mix, 1 egg, 1 cube melted butter...presto!), and then today we put them in baggies and walked down the street, trying to follow promptings on who to give them to.  It was meat to see him give them to people, walking up to complete strangers and offer his goodies to them (with me close by, of course).  I don't know where they get all these ideas, but I love it!  Pipalicious pointed out that maybe it will be like the following video:

...and that the people we gave the cookies to will "pay it forward."  Who knows?  They made my day :).

Little Zsa is a sweetie.  He fell asleep on the carpet downstairs while I was doing the seemingly never-ending job of cleaning off furniture downstairs and Avot was leading most of the kids in sign language choir while Lek signed up for the ACT.  I layed him down by Lek then looked over minutes later and there he was...sound asleep.  So sweet!  He has been better today so hopefully he is over his cold.  The kids love to make him laugh and smile and he is trying to sit up and hold himself up more and more.  He lights up whenever he sees a sibling, even Papaya and Spooner.  They are all so sweet to carry him around or hold him if I am busy or he is just fussy and I haven't gotten to him yet.

As for me, I am very tired.   I had very little sleep last night (Baby Zsa is not so good at that yet and I had other worries).  I loved running with my little girls first and then Liliputian after she got home from Young Womens at 9:30, but then I fell and tripped onto the asphalt, scraping up my palms...not so comfortable for typing.   Q-dawg is still out working crazy late, but I think I am going to crash...after helping Papaya go potty so we can avert an accident tonight--crossing my fingers!  I loved reading my girls to sleep and singing to them tonight. I don't do that often enough and  loved it.  Oh, and little Spooner, who is the sweetest little kissing machine in the world!  Whenever he gets "in trouble," ("No, Spooner!")  he opens his little arms wide and kisses you.  Or if you are just sad, he will come up and do the same.  He has definitely won his way into staying a sweet treasure in all our hearts so now we have two babies to love :).

Time to go crash!  Good day.

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Moments: Papaya's first bike ride, Ultimate frisbee and others

I had a moment tonight.  A brilliant moment.

It was around 11:30.  I looked down from running a beautiful path along an edge with my mudding trowel and thought, "This is fun!!"

It must have been Lek's prayer from this morning: "Please help us to get everything we want done today and help us find joy in doing it."  (Emphasis added by me, who always listens to prayers and promises most carefully.)  My mind went frequently to this prayer throughout the day as my goal changed from getting everything upstairs completely mudded, sanded and ready for painting tomorrow to at least one coat on everything.  I had an area I didn't realize hadn't been sheet-rocked yet, I had mothering and nursing to do (woohoo!), a batch of blonde brownies per Liliputian's request--sweet girl!-- and multiple bike "episodes."

But I felt peace.  And contentment.  And, strangely, enjoyment as I took up my trowel and mudded again.  This coming from the woman who vowed never to mud again after sanding and remudding,...and sanding and remudding...and sanding and remudding her first room!  Big moment.

Back to the bikes, we have an even more important moment to record.  It was the moment Papaya jumped on Hava's bike at the "family sports night" we went to last night (hosted by our awesome missionaries!  so fun!!!).  Papaya jumped on that two-wheeler, no-training wheel bike and rode like she had been doing it for years.  She turns 5 on Friday and was apparently just waiting for the opportunity.  Her range just jumped drastically, especially since there is some kind of magnetic attraction between her and the bike...like it gives her the freedom she yearns for.  She is so at peace riding, and riding, and riding some more.  Beautiful moment.  Fantastic moment.

Sports night was wonderful. We played ultimate frisbee and, just like in Kaysville, had that logic-defying experience when we all played together, all ages and skill-levels, and everyone had an amazing time.  The epic ones made epic catches and passes and the beginners had lots of opportunities to try and fail and try again...and make goals!!  We were all drenched with sweat...and, well, Papaya was drenched with a potty-accident but I have become, apparently, unfazed by such things and just went and took care of it.  It was particularly nasty, but she enjoyed my make-shift "outfit" of a band of fabric wrapped around her skinny little waist in a very mini-skirt over the swim diaper I found for her to wear under it.  That, combined with Spooner's old "BYU" t-shirt made quite the outfit. 

She was tickled.  Papaya walked away with her little girl strut: "Mom,...am I cute?"  Complete confidence that she was, regardless of anything I had to say in the matter.  When I hesitated (not wanting to encourage short skirts), she apparently didn't need any confirmation and said, "Yep.  I am."  And then she jumped back on the bike and pedaled like mad.

What a girl.

Chugger-dude made catch after catch in deep down-field.  Lek and the Goob were everywhere, making fantastic plays and throws to help their teams.  Liliputian never seemed to drop anything and has a very accurate throw after all her experience playing with us.  Hava joined us for a little while, but the other littles enjoyed the playground with their cousins...and the bikes, of course.  Baby Zsa slept through the whole thing so I ran up and down the field.  Well, I ran sometimes and jogged others.  And just smiled and watched most of the time.

I love watching my family.

Like today, Chugger-dude was in charge of Spooner while Liliputian was appointed "Papaya's best friend" for the day.  Both did their jobs with kindness and consistency while the Goob and Lek helped me with mudding, cooking and putting Baby Zsa to sleep or making him laugh, our family's latest favorite pasttime.  Anyway, back to Chugger-dude and Liliputian,...they spent so much time trying to fix Hava and Papaya's bikes every time something went wrong.  They calmly and persistently went at it to help their sisters be happy. I am not sure what this all comes from...maybe devotionals and nightly Book of Mormon reading?...but I'll take it!

Other moments: watching Spooner take down the Goob in cool wrestling moves on the tramp;  watching Hava's big brown eyes while she tells me stories; Hava and Pipalicious being up before everyone to hurry and get their jobs done so they can ride bikes together; Chugger-dude, Hava and Pipalicious riding their bikes to their cousin's house to see if they can play, getting caught in the rain storm and getting drenched so (after checking with me) they rode through all the mud puddles in the park they could find and then hosed off in the front yard to get clean...and cooler!; Lek coming out of the shower after working out this morning with the Goob and some friends and glowing with clean-ness; the Goob checking out his muscles like his big brother Lek :); Liliputian carefully sanding off the old paint on a door or getting lost in her recent favorite book; Avot coming home and typing up a new story she thought of, her face alight...

And Baby Zsa...so cute, cuddly and sweet! 

And he is calling!  Time to go :).