
I am sitting at the computer with twinkle lights over my head...love it! It kind of happened by accident. As we were preparing for St. Miklas Day (the day Santa comes in Hungary...and to one little house in Medina), I found the long strings of white lights we had used for our giant tree in Kaysville last year. "Where can I put these?" I mused, looking at our felt tree taped to the wall. Determined to make it festive in this shell of a downstairs, I started stringing....and stringing...and stringing. When I ran out of strings and plugged it in, my front room
glowed.
My first thought?
"Hey! Now I will be able to see what I am eating!" (This has worked to my advantage in serving up new dishes in the past few weeks, though. I will have to try a different strategy.)
Baby Zsa spends many moments entranced in wonder at all the lights. I do too :). I love Christmas.
The Three-Way Chess Moment
**I feel to make a pause in my writing...a shift, as it were. Into my mind floated the chapter headings in my daily reading to the kids that break up subjects and keep things organized...maybe I will do that every time my train of thoughts shift in a post? We will try this! Let me try again...**
The Three-Way Chess Moment
Lek is currently caught up in the insanity of ACT-Prep. He and the ACT-Prep book have been friends for weeks now, going to BYU football game broadcasts at friends' houses, traveling to Super Saturdays (his only outlet for seeing LDS girls his age...only once a month! Sigh...), or curled up with him in bed at night. I frequently find him on his knees by his bedside...not in prayer, but in an effort to study and stay awake in one of the quietest places in our house. (Although, I am sure there is a lot of prayer involved in his study at this point!)
Lek has been mixing in a splash of Seminary and football training for good measure into his days as well. To my delight, he has been chumming up with his younger brothers, including them in his training of football passing, sprint time improvements and working out in the gym. The latter has created great discussion in our home as the muscles get more defined and the reported weight capacity from the gym steadily increases for both he and the Goob. (Q-dawg insists Lek better keep it up on his mission or the Goob will not only be taller when Lek gets back, but stronger and take him down. Love the guy talk :).)

Anyway, another outlet for my battle-poised young man is chess. It used to be enough to take on just one adversary at the time, but Lek, in the building intensity of ACT-prep, has shifted the playing field to take on more opponents: three-way chess. Pulling out his board we picked up for him in Hungary, he has asked Avot and I to play...and when he asks in that sweet Lek way, who can resist?
Lek is wise in his approach. He knows to ask me in advance, when my day seems open, getting a commitment early so I can schedule it in. Yesterday, we were scheduled for after devotional, but ended up delaying it a bit as I had an amazing and attention-demanding phone call from a friend come in just as devotional was finishing up. After almost 40 minutes on the phone, hiding in various rooms so I could hear better, I emerged to find Avot and Lek sitting at the kitchen table in our front room, poised to go in front of the three-way chess board. Avot had her dictionary of Psychology terms and Lek his math book for review and practice.
It was time.
The game was intense as usual--usually, intensely hilarious as we each took turns feeling picked on by the other two. Avot and I are very spontaneous in our playing and thus respond quickly to threats. As we both set out it unfolded that both of our best chances for conquering another player ended up being on Lek's territory, poor chap.
"Well, at least I know that it takes two of you to defeat me!!" he exclaimed part-way through the game. Turns were interjected with lunch, prepared by the lovely Liliputian and her somewhat off-and-on assistant of Chugger-dude. Plates with individualized tuna fish sandwiches and cute little name tags were placed on the table for each of us as Liliputian customized our lunches. What a sweetie! Other interruptions were pretty steady as the center of family life--aka, me--was firmly ensconced at the kitchen table: the little girls and their on-going drama of who hit who and who was playing with who, Spooner and his never-ending exploits in the kitchen, the Goob and his fantastic array of spontaneous Goob-ness and Baby Zsa, who took a nap and woke up all during the course of the game. It takes serious concentration on my part to keep things straight and re-focus for the new topics of conversation and needs!
At one point, Lek had asked me about a problem that he had with math. We paused the game and I finished up my amazing explanation right as we heard a knock on the door. "I hate math!!!" Lek hollered, gnashing his teeth in frustration as I went to get the door. A friend was on the doorstep, with a box of brownie mix and a painted seat cover to adorn our home...I love New York! We know the best people! Our friend poked their head in a chuckled at the situation, then left us to our insanity. Wise man.
As we finished up the game, Lek being defeated quite by accident as usual (the "accident" not the "defeat" part being "as usual"), I walked over to get Baby Zsa situated in the high chair so he could eat some solids. My mind was a-whirl with the usual litany of "good, better, best!" that at various times picks up speed and intensity in my quest to do what is best with my precious, precious time. I doubt myself a lot, always second-guessing my choices of what I do with my time. Am I meeting the needs that I should be at every given moment? No. This is not healthy and, yes. I am trying to figure out how to moderate and lessen the intensity, but sometimes I feel engulfed with all the things I am not doing.
This was one such moment.
In an effort to combat the barrage of thoughts, the overwhelmed feeling, I cried out inside, "Father! What do You want of me?!"
I took a few steps and was stunned by the reply: "What if I told you that you have already done everything I want you to do for the day?" It was only noon. How could that be?
"I am satisfied with what you have given me, today, my daughter. The rest of the day is yours."
I stopped, overwhelmed. Tears started flowing as I pondered on the feeling of knowing I was okay. My offering was sufficient. Avot glanced up and saw my tear-streaked face with concern. As I tried to communicate this precious moment, more tears came.
Just then, the Goob came bouncing up, a stream of intense, bubbly words already in motion. As he turned to look at me, he immediately stopped mid-stream and his big-blue eyes grew suddenly wide and focused. "Are you okay?" Okay, now, I know there is now way to capture the hilarity of the moment, but his instant shift from bubbly to deep, intense concern (especially coming from the Goob) sent Avot and I into gales of laughter.
"Oh no!!" The Goob protested. "I am so sorry!"
"Don't be," I smiled :).
Moments Slipping By
It is moments like this that just seem to slip by so fast!
Moments like Hava waking up just now and the first words from her mouth after a slow, drawn out: "Good morning, Mom," are "Today will be so awesome because we are having hot dogs tonight." Food is very important to this young lady. That, and details and consistency :).
Pipalicious just came down the stairs, "Ouch, ouch, ouch..." with Spooner trailing behind, "Ouch, ouch, ouch..." right before giving me one of his "air-kisses": "mwa-ha!" Off to the kitchen he goes! (Can I just say that those little "air-kisses" are one of my favorite things in the world!!)
Moments like yesterday when he brought his mini-shopping cart downstairs into the kitchen and I showed him where he could load up food into it from the pantry. Little did I know I was apparently giving him license to open up all those packages and combine them in a pot...a pot that I need to hurry and clean before I can cook up Daddy Rice for breakfast. Clock is ticking, you know!
Capture memories or go make some more...that is always the question, right?
Memories like Hava sleeping at the foot of our almost flat sleeping pads that Q-dawg and I get out each night to lay on for our bed, because being next to her bed is simply not close enough :).
Or having Hava ask me how to play "Up on the Housetop" and having me sing out, "two-two-two, one-one-one, three, one, four," numbering the notes automatically after so many times. Or when she stood in front of a room full of women last night at church, shyly yet determinedly teaching them the sign-language to the first verse of "Silent Night."
Or seeing the squishy yumminess of our oh, so fat Baby Zsa in his daddy's arms as they come down the stairs to wish me good morning. Baby Zsa is now "helping" Daddy at the keyboard...and now leaked all over Daddy so "it looks like Daddy peed his pants," Daddy just said. "Snort," was Baby Zsa's reply. That kid goes through food and diapers like no other!! He is so solid!
Liliputian comes in to save the day, taking the leaky baby upstairs for her "mommy help" for the day. (My favorite "basics" job!) "Pipalicious, will you go and grab some wipes and a diaper for me?" she calls out. "It will be your 'Liliputian' help." :)
Final one, I promise, before starting my already "late" day: Spooner and his obsession with sweets in the kitchen (that kid has a nose for them!) and the Magic School Bus. "Skoo bus... beep! Beep! Beep!" he calls out regularly when he finds buses outside, among his cars, or in books or movies. He knows all the important words: "Mommy, Daddy, Garbage, School Bus..."
Okay, one more. This one is from a teary Papaya: "Mommy! Why don't you do what Heavenly Father wants you to do?"
Good question :).
I just had a thought occur to me. I wonder how much recording these moments makes the moments themselves more real...maybe even makes our life more meaningful. I have seen my kids' hearts soften to each other, appreciate each other more, take time to enjoy and laugh at the little moments more as they read through this blog where I try to capture our lives from a mother's viewpoint. Is there something about putting into words our life that somehow seem to make it more important, like if it is worth writing down, it is worth more?
I don't know. However, I look forward to asking Heavenly Father that question: what difference did it make to my children to record our lives so immediately, taking the "ordinary" and finding the wonder of it? I suspect I will be amazed. Better keep it up!
NOTE TO THE EDITOR(S): Unfortunately, Sarah, Marni and Q-dawg, I will not be spending a great deal of time editing in my effort to keep up, so whatever a quick review or spell check does not pick up, it will just have to do, lol :). You three are my "super English" heroes...when I grow up, I want to be just like you! Oh, gotta include Niesha in that as well. Love you guys!