I miss using this blog, with my personally iconic "Singing Bees" label. I guess it has become even more dear to my heart since starting my kids' books, which are such a journey of love. Here is a link to the "in between" one I used for a couple years: Tokidlihypihamaxelip. (There is also a link in the side bar.) I definitely need to update the side pictures, but (other than adding ones for the missing people) I don't know if I'll be able to do it. Those pictures are so precious to me, capturing so much. I am grateful for pictures, blogs and journaling!
I am feeling more inclined to journal every day. Our family is full of joy and sadness, beauty and brokenness, and it is good to record it so we may learn and grow together <3. I feel that this is the place I will continue to record, as it has so much of our past here as well.
I am currently visiting Hungary with Kel and his beautiful family. They are so dear! We had a great day in Vienna, Austria (the city I flew into) taking a culinary tour of the city. Akos (imagine there's an accent over that "A"!) enjoyed using his little scooter to zoom all over, and reminded me so much of his coordinated little daddy at that age.
We stayed up late last night--chatting and possibly making Rรฉka a little sick, poor dear. She has had a stressful last week (well, a stressful last month!) and a hard day today, but she is resilient <3. It is good to see her and Kel counsel together and make the best of hard situations.
Piper and Havala are taking on the lion's share of covering me for when I am gone, with a healthy dose of Maia and Daddy thrown in for good measure. Bless his heart, Quinn is doing the labor of love trying to provide for all of this and all of us. Piper and Havala are coordinating meals, clean-up and basic, basic schedule up-keep. I couldn't do this traveling without them, and I am so grateful.
I got to video chat with my lovies at home today! Xai, Eli, Liesl and Penelope were taken on an adventure by Havala and Maia in our woods and Piper and Kujo tried to find them. Havala said it was crazy how well Kujo found the kids time and again, often getting really close, even if Piper didn't see it too (although she may have been just pretending not to see them...I haven't heard her side of the story). I am happy that they are having fun doing something besides just watching movies and eating cold cereal for breakfast and fun frozen food for lunches. I do that so that they look forward to me being gone, in one sense. They kept asking, "Aren't you going yet?" ;). I know that they love it. It is just great to feel they are okay with me leaving.
Penelope wasn't so great with me leaving. She apparently wouldn't be put down Saturday morning. I video-chatted with her today for a while and she babbled and babbled. I super love her and miss her! She tends to torpedo Quinn at night more with me gone. That is probably the hardest part--leaving the baby. Liesl also spent a great deal of time on the video chat and I loved that too! She asked me often, "So how are you doing today?" I was in a place where I was keeping people up, so I tried to speak quietly so that was hard, but worth it. They are both so dear. Xai and Eli got on excitedly, long enough to have a slight well-mannered disagreement about something, dear ones.
I am looking forward to chatting with Lily tomorrow and possibly Drew and Hyrum, depending upon where we are at in traveling. Lily only has about four months left, Drew seven and Hyrum is just getting going.
Ben caught a cute picture of Tova snuggling with Zoe, her older dog. She is so cute with her two labs and we always enjoy with we get to visit them or they visit us.
You know, I am grateful for the joys mixed in with the struggles. Big kid problems are way harder on a parent's heart than younger kid problems I always heard and that is certainly true. But it's not even about my heart...it's about seeing my kids and the problems that are no longer fixed by a hug and a kiss. I love these spirits that are a part of my life and pray that they can find meaning in my imperfectly offered love and find peace in their paths.